23rd Jan, today is my dearest Chun Rui's birthday.
I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I really am!!! Please? Can we just return to what we were like before the incident? Oh my gosh! I really miss you, Rui! Those chats that we used to have, those meetings, those lunch and those bitching times.
God! I know i did a lot of evil things and i deserve retribution. But, this retribution, this punishment that you are giving to me, is too much and serious. It was really meant to be a surprise that backfired and hit me hard. Losing a dear sister and dearest friend is like a death sentence to me?
Sometimes, i just feel so idiotic and foolish for being so playful. The retribution of doing things without thinking and considering other's feelings. I never grow up, do I? Still being so childish.. What a fool, what a fool!!!! Ng Mei Qian, you sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!