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Mei Qian =) 28th Feb 1990
Wednesday, October 28, 2009

It's less than 2 weeks to my As, seriously, I'm not prepared ttm! I don't know, I feel my future is Full of darkness and I can't see the path.. My laziness is blocking me from seeing it, or maybe I'm not standing on my path at all? I feel that I'm more and more distant away as the days are getting closer.. I'm losing it. I'm losing this battle without even starting. I see my future being a retail sales personal earning like what, $1500 a month? Wah Fuck Mann!! I seriously don't want it... There's so much catching up to do, but so limited time.. I'm gonna fail Mann! Damn badly. All I gonna see on my A Level result slip is GP: E, ECONS: U, HIST: E, CHINA STUDIES: E, H1 MATH:U. Fuck me!

All my uni friends are like saying how wonderful uni life is, how sucky that module can be and how sucky the prof is. Can I do the same thing this time next year? I doubt I can... I'm losing faith.. I'm falling... Bye! NUS Chinese Studies! Just when I realize what my goal is, I have to give it up.. Cause I know I cant achieve it...

When u are not that smart, it seems tht you will have less stress and burden. If you are smart, you tend to have lesser too, cause you are born smart. But, when you are in between, you tend to get all the stress and burden. Cause you know you are not smart, yet you wanna climb high and not let the people who are encouraging and putting all their hopes and dreams in you down...